If i wanst sat at my desk all day looking out the window i wouldnt be quite so worked up and paranoid and sad and excited. No word from Tom, but he will call me. He has too. I just got a text message from ross and before i realised who it was from my tummy flipped and i wanted it to be from Tom so badly i could have screamed when it was from ross. not that i dont like getting messages from ross. of course i do. it would have been nice if it was Tom.
Ross reminded me that he didnt have my number and i didnt have his when we first met in similar circumstance but he still found me, or i like to think we found each other so you never know.
i cant believe im being like this. i could compare it to a school girl crush but its not so much. its differentto any crush ive had before. it weird and to be honest i dont like it much. i would prefer to be thinking anything like this, not only am i starting to sound dramatically emo i also am acting like emo kid to the max. i, today, am listening to a Jade Tree Sampler, ive been reading comic books (Cake Mix Comics By Women) and i am having a huge crush on the most emo man i could possibly imagine.
if i dont do some work ill get fired. not that that would matter i only have a week left here before its time to leave. if i dont stop wollowing in misery i will end up with no friends. and all it would take .. one simple phone call. even if it is to say, 'sorry love im way better than you could ever do, you didnt actually think i liked you did you? oh that is tragic. im way out of your league...' ...because he is. then i could get over it before i fall for him.