'Help me get over it, help me get over it...' OLD
I am retarded today. i am so retarded i want to scream. Im going to attempt to explain what im feeling, it may be a little more difficult than i thought.
I love pete, im with pete. pete is my boy and i couldnt be happier with him if i tried. we are perfect.
there is a boy, i used to go out with him, for a very long time when i was much younger. when i moved here i moved away from here and we werent even really talking. i thought i would be best friends with this boy forever. i thought we were made for each other. when he broke up with me he broke my heart. i thought i would just curl up and die from heartbreak. i didnt i got on with it- was probablly a little bit mean to everyone and a bit crazy for a while but picked myself up and tried to get over it.
I havent had a conversation with him in like a year. we had an argument because of something i wrote in here that wasnt about him, he thought it was. it wasnt. i saw him at christmas, i dropped off a christmas card for him, he hardly even looked at me let alone spoke to me.
I think about him alot. not in the way i used to but i miss him, i miss our friendship. i miss talking to him. he was one of the few people i have met in my life who i will remember forever and treasure the memory's he has given me.
His band have a website. his picture is on there. he looks older now, he looks just like he did but older. i just stared at his picture for a good 15 minutes when i realised how much i missed him. it makes me want to cry so hard when i think about it.
i dont want anyone to think its because i love him and not pete. that is not the truth i adore pete. i love pete with all my heart, but i miss the old days sometimes too. i want to be able to pick up the phone and ask how he is and i cant, dont even no where to start. and that is sad. Thanks to tfldesigns.diaryland.com for the spanky beautiful new layout and thankyou's to all at www.not-that-ugly.co.uk for my old design, sorry guys it was just time for a change, like the spring time.